Word of the Year: Peace

As some of you know, last year, I chose “positivity” as my word of the year. For months, I did my best to stick by the five precepts of positivity I outlined in the post. I stuck to an exercise routine and lost a few pounds, gained a lot more followers here on Authoring Arrowheads, and had my most productive writing year to date. Up until June, I was doing well.

Then came the unexpected changes.

The first was a positive change: my boyfriend switching from a night-shift job to a day-shift job. Though I’m glad I get to see him more now, I initially struggled with finding free time to work on my author goals.

The second change, coming a month later, flipped my mentality switch back to Negative. My boyfriend’s momma, my hopeful future mother-in-law, passed away unexpectedly. I had a good relationship with her, and dealing with grief and the aftermath of her death created one of the toughest seasons of life I’ve ever endured.

I was angry with God for months. I’ve cried my eyes out. I’ve dealt with depressive episodes (and continue to). I’ve developed a strong resentment against people who merely seek attention from this pain that’s crippling me.

And in 2020, I just want peace.

Peace Defined

According to Merriam-Webster, peace is defined as:

  1. A state of tranquility or quiet
  2. Freedom from disquieting or oppressive thoughts or emotions
  3. Harmony in personal relations

For the last half of 2019, I lived day-to-day buckled into the first row of an emotional roller coaster, sick of the highs and lows.

Negative thoughts controlled my life and brought forth nothing but aggravation. I constantly wondered what I did for nothing to go right.

The selfish actions of others, ones I should be able to lean on during hard times, made me angry and stole my joy. Because I allowed it.

In 2020, I aim to:

  • Master the art of maintaining a TRANQUIL mindset to combat negative thoughts, people, and situations.
  • Use QUIET time for positive thinking, not dwelling on what may be wrong.
  • Filter my words and thoughts of DISQUIETING, repetitive judgmental/critical thoughts.
  • Combat OPPRESSIVE self-talk and thoughts with positive affirmations.
  • Learn how to better love the positive people in my life, and develop HARMONY with those who have previously caused strife.

Here’s praying 2020 will be the change I need. ❤


Talk to Me, Arrowheads!

What is your designated word of the year? If you had a word of the year last year, how did it affect your outlook? Let me know in the comments!

Aim high, stay strong, and always hit your mark.

-Allyson 😀

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As an author and blogger, my goal is to teach writers that there is a way to write realistic, thought-provoking, redemptive Christian fiction that honors God while not sugarcoating the realities of the world. 

3 thoughts on “Word of the Year: Peace

  1. Angry with God, eh? Yep, I’ve been there, but that was years ago. My own late mother-in-law was also angry with God when she lost her younger son to drowning in central Texas and her husband, an Air Force test pilot among other things, when something went wrong and the B-57 crashed into Salt Lake–the deaths happened a year apart. Right before she died herself two years ago she accepted Christ as Savior (said to my hubby and I on her death bed.). So do not give up. If you need support, just contact me at my website omegabooksnet.com.

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